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ApprenticeOfArt

Oct 21, 2013

What to do, where to go?

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Hi Everyone,

It has been ages since my last entry and i'm not sure whenever will be my next. In last 2 years, i've been through lost of things. And now sitting on my computer in a dark room and trying to do my confess, i kinda feel lost of weight on my shoulders, so i thought maybe writing could be great.

In last 2 years, i didn't only graduate from University (Department of Business Administration) but also had my national service in military for 5 months which has been hard for a person who is physically not capable of everything (i'm a very small guy). But i found out that it wasn't excuse at anything. Also losing my grandmother...

I wasn't very close with my other grandmother (my mom's mother) due to her behavor on our family. So when she was gone even though i felt pain, it was not how it should have been. My both grandfathers passed away long time ago. So there was only my grandmother for me after my parents. Losing her was hard for me, also my health issues that time around (my last year on university) made it pretty hard for me there. But somehow i made it, graduated and came back to my home.

I can't tell i share too much with my family, maybe because of their attidude to me through years built a wall between us, i don't know, though i love them, even though living with them kills me at all. And after graduating, there was a time that i should decide what to do. And i can't tell i picked this department totally by myself at all.

Problem was i came a long way but i'm not in a place i want to be. So i thought military service could be escape for me to think about it. Now, it's been about 5 months since i came home, my family keeps insisting about what i should do. But i have totally no idea what i should do. I'm into graphic design and video game design, but my country doesn't have many sources for video game at least. The only thing i know is, i want to leave this place, i want to go another country, with a backpack maybe and build a life from scratch, but i don't have money to do it and i don't know what i should do to be able to go another country and live there for good. I'm scared, confused, tired and everyone else giving me advice what jobs i should apply for, where i should live etc etc. I can't even finish a journal properly. :/

Now what?

What will i do?

Where will i go?

I feel alone and tired, i wish there was someone...

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ApprenticeOfArt

Jul 4, 2011

Hello All

2 min read

It's been a long time since i last updated my gallery, so i decided to write this journal, aat the moment i'm in the seek for great tutorials, i bought a tablet recently- not recently actually it's been more than a month, anyway currently i'm trying to do some works with it. This has been a tough year for me, my roommates etc, my personal life, ups and downs, so i remembered how much i love this part of my life and decided to work more on these, i will soon update my gallery, also this year i was working on my blog, not related to my works, but it was about a game i playing, link is www.riversthepuppet.wordpress.com , if ever you want to visit, otherwise, currently i'm on holiday and enjoying my freetime. Soon i will start working, so i wanted to make some works since i'm still free, anyway this was personal part of my journal, main reason i wrote this was to share a file i created over this time, i'm collecting tutorials and very useful tips over deviantart for some time and i created this great file, so i thought this might be useful for you, this is the link (apprenticeofart.deviantart.com…) , be sure to check it, there are many pixel art, painting, drawing etc tutorials in it and i still updating it with more tutorials i found on devianart, anyway thank you for reading, take care and see you soon!!

Also for donations and help m paypal is: riversthepuppet@gmail.com

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ApprenticeOfArt

Mar 30, 2011

Hi Everyone!!!

1 min read

After a long absense, i'm now back to deviantart, as you saw, i already uploaded some works on my gallery, also changed my avatar, it has an apprentice hat and it will be my official avatar from now on, i hope you like it, on upcoming weeks, i'll upload new works, including pixel, illustrating and drawing ones, thank you for all support through this time, all faves, points and llamas have a place in my heart, anyway, take care and see you next time!!!

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ApprenticeOfArt

Jan 8, 2011

Waaaaa?!! 3 days left for premium TvT

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ApprenticeOfArt

Dec 28, 2010

Hello All

8 min read

Hi, i'm sorry, it has been long time since all updates, i'm trying to buy a graphic tablet, cuz i wanna focus on my drawings for a while, also my examsn are on next week, so im not gonna be able to update my gallery for a while too, i hope you can understand it, anyway thanx for all points, faves, watches and llamas so far, they have been like medicine for me, take care all, also for the first time i'm giving an email address, so you can donate me if u love my works or at least u wanna help me, you can help with on this, no problem if u cant help, a llama is not different for me either, here it is:

apprenticeofart@gmail.com

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